Archive for August, 2004

Flashback no: 1

Tuesday, August 31st, 2004

drD: I resign

boss: OK drD – sorry n all that – ‘we’ll have to advertise your job – need you to help us decide how to pitch it – do we go for A skillset or B skillset or A+B?’

drD: err

boss: of course it’s too early for you to say – we’ll talk again soon

drD: [*thinks: dream on fish breath*] OK

boss: meanwhile perhaps you could put some ideas in writing

drD: OK [*thinks: After I’ve taken the time to arrange my new life in it’s entirety. When you’ve had to remind me sixteen times and I’m just about to walk out the door I might write a list of what I told you a year ago and you were too busy to pay attention to*]

boss: I always knew your career would move in this direction of course

drD: [*thinks: you know nothing about me – if you did you’d prostrate yourself at my feet and beg forgiveness for your inadequacy as a human being*] I see.

boss: Well, all the best

drD: [*thinks: …people leave this dump eventually – ciao!] OK

[drD exits left]

Olympic artwork quiz

– is getting a bit Radcliffian. Here are some clues to help you towards the finish:

A1 – Jahwohl

B1 – Only yesterday…

C1 – Rodent preserve

D1 – Can’t breathe

E1 – Smog

C2 – Waterloo promise to love you for evermore…

D2 – Dame Edna

Run like the wind

Olympic artwork quiz

Monday, August 30th, 2004

Can you identify the olympic city from the detail of it’s artwork – [taken from official posters, emblems or medals] – from one of the summer olympic games held since 1896?

Points [ but no medals ] will be awarded. [ One guess each please ]


My. Cherie, Amir

Saturday, August 28th, 2004


Friday, August 27th, 2004

What an extraordinary day.

Following this morning’s events I left work early today and decided to go to one of my favourite places in the world to finish the day in a bit of style. Preceded by a walk through a green n juicy Hyde Park – evening sunlight making everything glow – gorgeous.

Late night opening at the V&A – they had various DJs pumping out tunes in various quarters. Techno beats with your Donatello anyone? Very strange but made me see the musuem in a different way – like putting a new soundtrack to a familiar scene – clever.

I love to be able to gaze upon some masterworks – just walk in off the street and see works of genius tucked into obscure corners of a labyrinthine building. The nation’s treasure house. A little champagne and then back on the train, gazing at pink clouds against a powder blue sky. Wonderful to be part of all this.

Wonderful and moving too to read all the comments – very kind of you all to write them.

Nighty night.


Friday, August 27th, 2004

I’m back. I’ve done it.

Mood: Relief, a bit numb, slightly unreal and dreamlike.

I’ve resigned from a secure well paid job without a another job to go to.

It feels bloody good.

Mad? Most definitely.


Friday, August 27th, 2004

I’m about to go and do it.

Mood: Determined, excited and a bit nervous.


Friday, August 27th, 2004

Mood: Semi comatose – awake since 5.00am – excited.


Thursday, August 26th, 2004

Mood: Tired and nervous.


Thursday, August 26th, 2004

There come moments in every life where a turning point is reached. Where a choice needs to be made and the choice will have a lasting effect on the direction and nature of that life from then on. Just such a moment arrived for me yesterday. Whether to initiate a chain of events that I’ve long dreamt about but genuinely feared for the risk they represent – or to remain as is. To play it safe.

I’ve decided on the former course but I’ve not stepped yet beyond the point of no return.

You know that feeling you get when you are driving at high speed and it’s getting very slightly out of control but you’re enjoying the sensation so much that you push things a little further? That’s the sort of feeling I’ve got at the moment. I think it’s called being reckless. Writing this blog has helped me to get some perspective on what’s important and what’s not important in my life. Reading what others write has reinforced this. I’ve come a long way in the last year.

I now realise that I’m growing again. After a period that felt like stagnation – clinging to familiar patterns and behaviours – I’m now about to re-connect with my inner thingy. [How my inner thing feels about this I’ve yet to discover]

I’ve come to believe that everyone knows innately what’s right for them and what will make them happy. I’ve come to realise that much of what passes for ‘civilised life’ – money, possessions, jobs, f*****g ‘status’ – are actually mechanisms that divert innate vision and seduce us away from ourselves in the belief that our happiness lies with their false promises.

By this time tomorrow I will have stepped beyond the point of no return. I never thought I would do what I’m planning to do. [ Rest assured it’s legal and not life threatening – lots of people do it everyday but I’ve never done it and it’s scary but I know I have to do it ] The fact that my heart leaps with excitement at what will follow tells me it’s the right thing to do. The fact that my stomach twangs with nerves everytime I think about what I’m planning to do tomorrow tells me that I’m still alive and that years of conditioning have taken their toll on my spirit.

Check back tomorrow morning – I’ll be publishing as it happens…


Mood: Focussed & happy – occasional nerve twangs.

Red red wine

Wednesday, August 25th, 2004

Red red wine you make me feel so fine

You keep me rocking all of the time

Red red wine you make me feel so grand

I feel a million dollars when your just in my hand

Red red wine you make me feel so sad

Any time I see you go it makes me feel bad

Red red wine you make me feel so fine

Monkey pack him rizla pon the sweet dep line

Red red wine you give me whole heap of zing

Whole heap of zing mek me do me own thing

Red red wine you really know how fi love

Your kind of loving like a blessing from above

Red red wine I love you right from the start

Right from the start with all of my heart

Red red wine in a 80’s style

Red red wine in a modern beat style, yeah
I love this track. I love Red Wine. Especially a nice spicy shiraz. Chilled. Yes chilled red wine. I know it’s weird – but it works – try it. Labour of love I own only on cassette. It’s a classic. Double platinum and every track a gem. Sounds a bit dated now but still has that bleak edginess from the 80’s. Wonder if I should get the CD?
Two samples for you to try.

Red red wine
Many rivers
Sorry I can’t pour you a glass. Here’s the next best thing.